Have any of you ever seen or heard an amazing story that inspired you to be a better person? I just had a simple thought tonight that I wanted to write down for my own sake, and anyone reading who might feel like me once in a while.
Lately I've been feeling a little like the frog that fell in the bucket of cream - I know that in theory, if I just keep kicking it will eventually turn into butter and I'll be able to hop out. But for some reason, the cream just keeps getting deeper and deeper and my legs are getting tired (maybe it's because we haven't had a decent night's sleep for months - thanks kids, I love you.) In other words, I've been feeling overwhelmed, inadequate, disorganized and frustrated.
But tonight I was doing a little blog stalking, (yeah, instead of catching up on all of those things that are making me feel like the frog in the bucket) and I checked up on one of my
favorites. As I read her thoughts, I got a very familiar, energizing feeling that makes me want to kick my frog legs a little harder. It's that same feeling I get whenever I listen to an inspired speaker, read a great book, or hear a story of personal triumph. I felt ready to try again, and somehow do better this time.
Of course, in the very midst of my Wonder Woman moment, I suddenly had a destructive thought:
I sure need a lot of inspiration. Ha!
And once I opened the door, other thoughts quickly ran through my mind:
Does this mean I'm weak and inadequate?
Is it bad to need constant positive influence in my life?
Why do I need so many reminders?
The ugly little monsters ran around in my head for several minutes before I realized one simple thing.
Sometimes I just forget, and that's OK.
I get caught up in day-to-day things that put me into a survival mode rather than a self-improvement one. I am not a failure because I need to be reminded (often) of what I need to be and how I truly want to live my life. I am only a failure if I don't try.
and so i keep on kicking.